Two Years...

Two Years...

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11



It does not seem like it's been 2 years since our little girl, Abby, went to be with the Lord. A lot has happened in those 2 years and I am so thankful that God is so faithful, despite the fact that I doubt Him-a lot.

I know for a fact that God had us go through losing Abby in the right place/time. He provided us with so much love and support from our church and our close friends while we were there. I feel so blessed to have had the support we did. I never felt as though we were alone. I always had a friend to talk to and cry with (thanks JoAnne and Rachel). It also helped knowing that all of our friends were believers and even though they couldn't explain why God would choose us to go through this journey, they could reassure us that Abby would soon be able to meet Jesus and live a wonderful life in the most perfect place there is. And even though I selfishly wish that she was with us today and I could hold her in my arms, I am comforted by the fact that Jesus has been able to hold her for me. She was always His and not mine.

God has challenged us greatly and I have to say, I don't feel as though I have trusted in Him like I should.  The day we found out we would be having another baby was the best and scariest day of my life. I knew that I had to put all of my faith in the Lord and allow him to carry me through.  After what we went through with Abby, it was the only way that I could get through the pregnancy without being terrified. God was faithful, and brought so much peace throughout the pregnancy. I would have moments where I would become overwhelmed and afraid that the same thing was going to happen, but God provided me with a sense that things were going to be different this time. I could honestly hear Him whisper in my ear, "It's going to be ok. Trust me."

We are so blessed to have another little girl. I can't help but look at this picture and wish that we had another little girl in it with us. She will always be in our hearts and we will never forget her. Thanks to all of our friends and family that supported us through that difficult time.

I'm going to end this post with the words from the Selah song "I Will Carry You". It perfectly describes how I felt going through the loss of Abigail. Here is a link if you would like to listen to it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VLuaGiu73jc&noredirect=1



I Will Carry YouThere were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?People say that I am brave but i'm not
Truth is i'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this
So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says

I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One who's chosen me
To carry you



One Month

This post is a little late, but I guess "better late than never". On Nov. 6th, Jade turned one month old! I can't believe how fast time flies! We've all been getting use to our new life. Overall Jade is a very good baby. She has been a little fussy lately and we're not sure why. We think it's either just a growth spurt or she has a little bit of reflux which makes her uncomfortable. She loves spending time "sleeping in" with daddy on the weekends and she really enjoys bath time. We feel so blessed to have her in our lives.

We really enjoy spending time together as a family on the weekends. We try to do as much as we did before having a baby...going grocery shopping together, going out to eat. We don't want to feel as though we can't have a "normal" life just because we have a baby.

Here are a few one month pictures of Jade. We got the onesie stickers on Etsy and I absolutely love them. After we take the pictures, we put the sticker in her baby book.